My 1,000th post.


I was having a really hard time trying to think of what to post just now. I was going through my funny pictures and all that jazz in my files. All of it was to make people go “Omg, Benji’s such a funny guy!”. But fuck that shit. You guys follow me through thick and thin. This one is for you. So here’s a story I hope might help if you’re down.

I see so many people having trouble in life. It sucks to see that, because I know my friends are fucking rad as hell, and so many other people I meet are just so dang awesome. When they are sad it sucks. They deserve to have a friggin’ sweet time!

I have been like that in the past. Just…absolute pits. I had honestly thought of taking my own life. And had come so fucking close to ending it all.
I don’t know what changed…maybe it was my friends. Maybe it was good times. Maybe it was beating Castlevania 2 for the second time ever (seriously, fuck that game).

But whatever it was. I got through it. And that’s why I have hope for all of you. All my friends, and everyone out there. You all have incredible strength within you. And you can change the world in your own way and do incredible things. You just have to be willing to pull through, and know that THINGS WILL GET BETTER.

When things come crashing down for you, you should know that someone out there loves and cares for you. Heck, some of us are lucky enough to have more than one person looking out for us! But you will ALWAYS have someone.

And if you feel like you don’t, you can come to me.

I couldn’t bear the thought of someone dying, thinking they’re alone. And I really am happy to do my best to show you the things worth living for. Because this world is tricky. It sometimes looks bleak, but if you know where to look, the world is vibrant, colourful, friendly, fun, and so bloody exciting!
There is so much in this world to enjoy, and it’s a matter of looking for it.
Sometimes that’s a little tricky though, and you might need help. There’s nothing wrong with needing a little assistance to get back on track on how awesome your life is gonna be. :)

So please, remember this when you’re down. And you need to talk to me, my askbox is always open, and I’m happy to do my best to show you how much of a fucking awesome time you can have.

I love you, guys.

Stay strong. 


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